Justifications

Did I just explain myself away, again? To you.

I envy you. You listen to me, feel pity, like I have no clue.

I care what you think, though I do not know you. I care about your judgments of me.

I seek, strive, try too hard. Like a game of hide and seek, in the darkness. I cannot see.

Where did I decide my voice was less than yours?

Or that you were everything and I, covered in flaws?

You reflect on my insecurities like it is something true.

Then I see it, a glimpse deep in your eye, you want to prove your worth to me, you fear me, you are justifying yourself too.