Muddy

It's a combination of you not loving me,

enough.

And of me hating myself,

so much.

And of my own path,

finding peace in my solitude.

And of your path,

finding strength in your vulnerability.

And it's a combination of wanting you,

to be,

the one.

And it's a combination of you wanting me,

to be,

different.

And of me wanting,

to be different.

And of wanting you,

to be softer.

And of not knowing what is the right,

thing to be.

And it's a combination of anger,

and hurt,

and loneliness.

And it's desire for you to fight for me,

to stay,

and say that it's ok,

for me to make a mistake,

because it's never too late,

to change,

again.

And it's despair because,

I feel,

I've lost,

yet,

another,

Friend.